Running on E

Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the assurance that what we hope for will come about and the certainty that what we cannot see exists.

2 Corinthians 5:7 For we walk by faith, not by sight.

2 Timothy 2:13 If we are unfaithful, he remains faithful because he cannot be untrue to himself.

This past week, I have realized how embarrassingly little faith I have in such a huge and faithful God. 

I'll try to make this story short, which as you may know is not a skill of mine. I was in a not so familiar backwoods town for clinicals with my gas gauge below the E, no cash, a time constraint, and an impending snow storm. I stopped at the first gas station- which looked like the town center of drug sales, risked my life and darted in to pay with my american express and head off... But of course they didn't take my card. This happened twice, as I continued driving into what seemed to be more into the center of the redneck ghetto. I had prayed the entire car ride, telling God/ really telling my self "God is bigger than my problems" [repeat x100]. Even though I said it, the truths of that statement didn't really settle in because I begun to get upset with God OVER GAS!?! The dumbest things ever were said in my head to Him " I trusted you. Why aren't you helping me? I thought you said you would provide for me." Of course a minute into my psychotic break down I arrived to a main street with a real gas station, and witnesses and was able to fill up my tank. 

As I was filling up I realized how faithless I was... Faith is believing that "what we hope for will come...and what we cannot see exists". I believe God will provide for me when my gas gauge is above E or even on it, I believe God will provide on me when my credit card is not declined, I have a paycheck coming in and my parents have jobs, I believe God will provide for me when I have a job lined up after graduation... and sadly, I've believed that is faith. It's not. Faith is believing all these things to be true when there is no gas in the tank, when there is no paycheck coming in, when you are absolutely clueless of what is ahead of you... but you know... you are "certain" that God still holds your future and He will carry you through. The best part of my faithless adventure- is realizing no matter how little my faith may be, God will continue to be faithful FOREVER.

If you want to learn more about walking by faith and not by sight check out Hebrews 11 & this amazing getty song:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXB8ihepUpE