I don't want to be an idiot anymore!

“Don’t be terrified of them. God, your God, is leading the way; he’s fighting for you. You saw with your own eyes what he did for you in Egypt; you saw what he did in the wilderness, how God, your God, carried you as a father carries his child, carried you the whole way until you arrived here. But now that you’re here, you won’t trust God, your God—this same God who goes ahead of you in your travels to scout out a place to pitch camp, a fire by night and a cloud by day to show you the way to go.” - Deuteronomy 1: 29-33

I see the Israelites in the OT as dummies. Straight-up, nonsensical, foolish people. I mean they have seen God divide oceans, turn water into blood, turn the skies into pitch darkness ect. & when God tells them He will continue to carry them to the place He has promised they don't trust that He is capable of because the people that live there are oober tall.

Idiots.

Yeah, so that's pretty much been me! Every prayer I've had these past weeks God has answered:

• When planning stand-by flights to Seattle, I asked God to make it happen if that's where He wanted me & when He made it happen, I started worrying that maybe I should've been at home studying. 
• In regards to jobs, I prayed that God would open the one door He would want me in and close all the other ones... & then I have been freaking out when every hospital I have applied too hasn't been throwing offers at me, but one has given me an interview. 
• I asked God to help me pick a date to take my Boards, and then when there was only one option left in this month, I freaked out because it was so soon!

Idiot.

I don't want to be an idiot anymore!!!!!

God offered me peace, in every situation, & I chose to worry instead. Which was silly because either way God is still trustworthy and holds my future. 

Tomorrow, I take the biggest exam of my life so far- the dreaded NCLEX aka nursing boards. Today, (& I'm praying tomorrow as well) I choose not to worry because if I pass, God is  faithful, sovereign & loving! If I fail, God is still faithful, sovereign & loving. When I begin to worry I will (...need you to remind me) remind myself of how he carried me the whole way though nursing school (and my entire flippin life) and will carry me until I arrive to my final destination! He has gone ahead of me and already knows what my future looks like & holds it in his massive, tender hands!! What do I have to fear?