I choose Joy!

Right now I am currently waiting in line to ask the financial aid director if he would release the money from my scholarship before tuition is due so I don't get my kicked out of my classes.

I came here after spending the first 5 hours of my day at the children's center working with severely disabled children, then I called the financial aid office to try to settle my loans/scholarships. After being put on hold for 30 min I decided to drive over to campus, which is where I found out the office had moved. So I drove over to the new make-shift financial aid office, where I waited in three lines received 2 numbers and have waited about 2 hours to speak to someone. (I may have forgot to mention I hung up with them on the phone when I came to line number 2 and I saw the  phones not being answered and constantly being silenced).
Waiting in lines is not my thing. To be honest, in general- patience is not my thing. But it has been something I have stupidly and innocently asked God for over and over. I ask him for patience when I curse in my mind at the idiot who just pulled out in front of me on the highway, and when my school once again brings up a new assignment that is due within a few hours. It's in these moments I realize I'm going to have premature heart problems because I can  feel my blood pressure rising,  my heart rate increase and my patience running awfully thin.

... and here I find myself waiting in line, now one spot away from someone who may or may not be able to assist me.


It is here in line that I am reminded of the tremendous gifts I have been given. The gift of life. The gift of technology, and the ability to blog while I am waiting in line. It is here I am reminded of the gift of speech, the ability to walk, and make my own meals which is a gift the dear children I played with this morning have not been given. It is here that I thank God for an opportunity to pray for those around me as I can feel the anger and frustration building from long lines, little help and hot weather.

Today I chose to rejoice, because of Jesus I am free to stop wallowing in self-pity and seeing how awful my life is compared to what I wish it was, and rejoice at the life, and that path that God has chosen for me today.

But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. -Psalm 13:5

How can I rejoice with you in God's plan for your life?